Dissociative Identity Theft

because nothing seems like it ever is. because i fall for my friends. or more exactly i fall for my friends who live really far away. and i imagine it being something that it never will. and i just do it anyway even though it'll never happen.

Ultima64X2 (2:16:01 AM): Sorry

Auto response from em o n e mo 2286 (2:16:02 AM): i want a kitten named poptart.
and i want to not feel the way i do right now.
because its stupid and i'm stupid for even letting it enter my being.
:-(

Ultima64X2 (2:16:25 AM): it's my fault for you being so down
Ultima64X2 (2:16:49 AM): and i'm sorry but u know we will never be together
Ultima64X2 (2:17:03 AM): not because i don't want to
Ultima64X2 (2:17:10 AM): but because i'll never be up north
Ultima64X2 (2:17:18 AM): and i'm just talking pointlessly
Ultima64X2 (2:17:20 AM): and i'm sorry
Ultima64X2 (2:17:36 AM): i feel like shit myself listening to Goo Goo Dolls
Ultima64X2 (2:17:42 AM): and... i'm not even sure
Ultima64X2 (2:17:50 AM): but all i can do is listen
Ultima64X2 (2:18:54 AM): I've been upset myself but keeping it deep inside, I can't help but think of Carly and Rachel... in t he car today I mention to my dad about being my family's tool he drops the subject kinda agreeing but changing the subject
Ultima64X2 (2:19:01 AM): and i just make u feel miserable
Ultima64X2 (2:19:11 AM): so i'm sry
Ultima64X2 signed off at 2:19:35 AM.

you won't even understand because i don't feel like explaining. i just feel like crying.