Dissociative Identity Theft

all good questions, which i have to consider when i'm more awake (i went to the sickest anthrax concert ever tonight and it was AMAZING). the other night when we were together i didn't even want to have sex with her, as much as i wanted to be able to touch her, like hold her and stuff...i don't know what that means if anything at all. i know its an impossible thing, and that might be part of the reason, but its so much more of my general identity that i'm questioning right now.
earlier i was talking to my mom and i guess i keep getting really defensive when she talks about the bible, and how homosexuality is a sin. and she asked me why i was being so defensive, and i shrugged it off because i had a lot of gay friends at school and stuff...but like i know i'm a lot more defensive about it lately then i ever was when i was at school.
anyway i have to get some sleep.
oh...and here's an email my stepmother sent me:

You either fill that application out so I can take it into work; or MOVE OUT. I have talked to your mother and she will take you in! I am tired of you taking things without asking and using them as your own: example is the brush up in the bathroom that I bought for my hair and you stole it! You know owe me $8.00, so I can order one for myself. MY Shampoo.....buy your own! You get money from sources...buy your own toiletries. Do YOU UNDERSTAND ME !!!! SHIT OR GET OFF THE POT! This is not a hotel for your own convenience. LOUISE

i would just like to note that i started using that hair brush like a year ago and she just said something about it now...whatever...just figured i'd share that with you...oh and she talked to my mother like 2 months ago, that's what my mom said, and that she never said anything to my mother about me moving back in with her...